Chapter III.

Showing That Old Acquaintances Are Capable of Surprising Us

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Summary: The chapter provides an insight into the after-effects of Maggie's return home. Aunt Glegg shows unexpected support for Maggie, despite her previous disapproval. She reprimands Tom for his harsh judgement of Maggie and offers to provide a shelter for Maggie. Maggie, however, wishes to be independent and earn her own living. She is anxious about Philip Wakem and finally receives a letter from him, expressing his belief in her and his enduring love for her, despite their painful separation.

Main Characters: ['Maggie', 'Aunt Glegg', 'Tom', 'Mrs Tulliver', 'Philip Wakem']

Location: Maggie's home

Time Period: 19th century

Themes: ['Family honor', 'Judgement', 'Love', 'Sacrifice', 'Independence']

Plot Points: ["Maggie's return home and her family's reaction", "Aunt Glegg's unexpected support", "Maggie's desire to be independent", "Maggie's worry for Philip", "Philip's letter to Maggie expressing his love and belief in her"]

Significant Quotations: ["'Your aunt Glegg scolded me so as niver was, my dear,' said poor Mrs Tulliver", "'I must get my own bread. But did you hear nothing of Philip—Philip Wakem? Have you never seen any one that has mentioned him?'", "'Maggie,—I believe in you; I know you never meant to deceive me; I know you tried to keep faith to me and to all.'"]

Chapter Keywords: ['Homecoming', 'Judgement', 'Support', 'Independence', 'Love', 'Letter']

Chapter Notes: ["This chapter shows a shift in Aunt Glegg's attitude towards Maggie, indicating a change in her character.", "Philip's letter reveals his enduring love for Maggie and his belief in her, providing a sense of hope for their relationship.", "Maggie's desire for independence and her concern for Philip show her strength and selflessness."]

When Maggie was at home again, her mother brought her news of an unexpected line of conduct in aunt Glegg. As long as Maggie had not been heard of, Mrs Glegg had half closed her shutters and drawn down her blinds. She felt assured that Maggie was drowned; that was far more probable than that her niece and legatee should have done anything to wound the family honour in the tenderest point. When at last she learned from Tom that Maggie had come home, and gathered from him what was her explanation of her absence, she burst forth in severe reproof of Tom for admitting the worst of his sister until he was compelled. If you were not to stand by your “kin” as long as there was a shred of honour attributable to them, pray what were you to stand by? Lightly to admit conduct in one of your own family that would force you to alter your will, had never been the way of the Dodsons; and though Mrs Glegg had always augured ill of Maggie’s future at a time when other people were perhaps less clear-sighted, yet fair play was a jewel, and it was not for her own friends to help to rob the girl of her fair fame, and to cast her out from family shelter to the scorn of the outer world, until she had become unequivocally a family disgrace. The circumstances were unprecedented in Mrs Glegg’s experience; nothing of that kind had happened among the Dodsons before; but it was a case in which her hereditary rectitude and personal strength of character found a common channel along with her fundamental ideas of clanship, as they did in her lifelong regard to equity in money matters. She quarrelled with Mr Glegg, whose kindness, flowing entirely into compassion for Lucy, made him as hard in his judgment of Maggie as Mr Deane himself was; and fuming against her sister Tulliver because she did not at once come to her for advice and help, shut herself up in her own room with Baxter’s “Saints’ Rest” from morning till night, denying herself to all visitors, till Mr Glegg brought from Mr Deane the news of Stephen’s letter. Then Mrs Glegg felt that she had adequate fighting-ground; then she laid aside Baxter, and was ready to meet all comers. While Mrs Pullet could do nothing but shake her head and cry, and wish that cousin Abbot had died, or any number of funerals had happened rather than this, which had never happened before, so that there was no knowing how to act, and Mrs Pullet could never enter St Ogg’s again, because “acquaintances” knew of it all, Mrs Glegg only hoped that Mrs Wooll, or any one else, would come to her with their false tales about her own niece, and she would know what to say to that ill-advised person!

Again she had a scene of remonstrance with Tom, all the more severe in proportion to the greater strength of her present position. But Tom, like other immovable things, seemed only the more rigidly fixed under that attempt to shake him. Poor Tom! he judged by what he had been able to see; and the judgment was painful enough to himself. He thought he had the demonstration of facts observed through years by his own eyes, which gave no warning of their imperfection, that Maggie’s nature was utterly untrustworthy, and too strongly marked with evil tendencies to be safely treated with leniency. He would act on that demonstration at any cost; but the thought of it made his days bitter to him. Tom, like every one of us, was imprisoned within the limits of his own nature, and his education had simply glided over him, leaving a slight deposit of polish; if you are inclined to be severe on his severity, remember that the responsibility of tolerance lies with those who have the wider vision. There had arisen in Tom a repulsion toward Maggie that derived its very intensity from their early childish love in the time when they had clasped tiny fingers together, and their later sense of nearness in a common duty and a common sorrow; the sight of her, as he had told her, was hateful to him. In this branch of the Dodson family aunt Glegg found a stronger nature than her own; a nature in which family feeling had lost the character of clanship by taking on a doubly deep dye of personal pride.

Mrs Glegg allowed that Maggie ought to be punished,—she was not a woman to deny that; she knew what conduct was,—but punished in proportion to the misdeeds proved against her, not to those which were cast upon her by people outside her own family who might wish to show that their own kin were better.

“Your aunt Glegg scolded me so as niver was, my dear,” said poor Mrs Tulliver, when she came back to Maggie, “as I didn’t go to her before; she said it wasn’t for her to come to me first. But she spoke like a sister, too; having she allays was, and hard to please,—oh dear!—but she’s said the kindest word as has ever been spoke by you yet, my child. For she says, for all she’s been so set again’ having one extry in the house, and making extry spoons and things, and putting her about in her ways, you shall have a shelter in her house, if you’ll go to her dutiful, and she’ll uphold you against folks as say harm of you when they’ve no call. And I told her I thought you couldn’t bear to see anybody but me, you were so beat down with trouble; but she said, ‘I won’t throw ill words at her; there’s them out o’ th’ family ’ull be ready enough to do that. But I’ll give her good advice; an’ she must be humble.’ It’s wonderful o’ Jane; for I’m sure she used to throw everything I did wrong at me,—if it was the raisin-wine as turned out bad, or the pies too hot, or whativer it was.”

“Oh, mother,” said poor Maggie, shrinking from the thought of all the contact her bruised mind would have to bear, “tell her I’m very grateful; I’ll go to see her as soon as I can; but I can’t see any one just yet, except Dr Kenn. I’ve been to him,—he will advise me, and help me to get some occupation. I can’t live with any one, or be dependent on them, tell aunt Glegg; I must get my own bread. But did you hear nothing of Philip—Philip Wakem? Have you never seen any one that has mentioned him?”

“No, my dear; but I’ve been to Lucy’s, and I saw your uncle, and he says they got her to listen to the letter, and she took notice o’ Miss Guest, and asked questions, and the doctor thinks she’s on the turn to be better. What a world this is,—what trouble, oh dear! The law was the first beginning, and it’s gone from bad to worse, all of a sudden, just when the luck seemed on the turn.” This was the first lamentation that Mrs Tulliver had let slip to Maggie, but old habit had been revived by the interview with sister Glegg.

“My poor, poor mother!” Maggie burst out, cut to the heart with pity and compunction, and throwing her arms round her mother’s neck; “I was always naughty and troublesome to you. And now you might have been happy if it hadn’t been for me.”

“Eh, my dear,” said Mrs Tulliver, leaning toward the warm young cheek; “I must put up wi’ my children,—I shall never have no more; and if they bring me bad luck, I must be fond on it. There’s nothing else much to be fond on, for my furnitur’ went long ago. And you’d got to be very good once; I can’t think how it’s turned out the wrong way so!”

Still two or three more days passed, and Maggie heard nothing of Philip; anxiety about him was becoming her predominant trouble, and she summoned courage at last to inquire about him of Dr Kenn, on his next visit to her. He did not even know if Philip was at home. The elder Wakem was made moody by an accumulation of annoyance; the disappointment in this young Jetsome, to whom, apparently, he was a good deal attached, had been followed close by the catastrophe to his son’s hopes after he had done violence to his own strong feeling by conceding to them, and had incautiously mentioned this concession in St Ogg’s; and he was almost fierce in his brusqueness when any one asked him a question about his son.

But Philip could hardly have been ill, or it would have been known through the calling in of the medical man; it was probable that he was gone out of the town for a little while. Maggie sickened under this suspense, and her imagination began to live more and more persistently in what Philip was enduring. What did he believe about her?

At last Bob brought her a letter, without a postmark, directed in a hand which she knew familiarly in the letters of her own name,—a hand in which her name had been written long ago, in a pocket Shakespeare which she possessed. Her mother was in the room, and Maggie, in violent agitation, hurried upstairs that she might read the letter in solitude. She read it with a throbbing brow.

“Maggie,—I believe in you; I know you never meant to deceive me; I know you tried to keep faith to me and to all. I believed this before I had any other evidence of it than your own nature. The night after I last parted from you I suffered torments. I had seen what convinced me that you were not free; that there was another whose presence had a power over you which mine never possessed; but through all the suggestions—almost murderous suggestions—of rage and jealousy, my mind made its way to believe in your truthfulness. I was sure that you meant to cleave to me, as you had said; that you had rejected him; that you struggled to renounce him, for Lucy’s sake and for mine. But I could see no issue that was not fatal for you; and that dread shut out the very thought of resignation. I foresaw that he would not relinquish you, and I believed then, as I believe now, that the strong attraction which drew you together proceeded only from one side of your characters, and belonged to that partial, divided action of our nature which makes half the tragedy of the human lot. I have felt the vibration of chords in your nature that I have continually felt the want of in his. But perhaps I am wrong; perhaps I feel about you as the artist does about the scene over which his soul has brooded with love; he would tremble to see it confided to other hands; he would never believe that it could bear for another all the meaning and the beauty it bears for him.

  “I dared not trust myself to see you that morning; I was filled     with selfish passion; I was shattered by a night of conscious     delirium. I told you long ago that I had never been resigned even     to the mediocrity of my powers; how could I be resigned to the loss     of the one thing which had ever come to me on earth with the     promise of such deep joy as would give a new and blessed meaning to     the foregoing pain,—the promise of another self that would lift my     aching affection into the divine rapture of an ever-springing,     ever-satisfied want? 

  “But the miseries of that night had prepared me for what came     before the next. It was no surprise to me. I was certain that he     had prevailed on you to sacrifice everything to him, and I waited     with equal certainty to hear of your marriage. I measured your love     and his by my own. But I was wrong, Maggie. There is something     stronger in you than your love for him. 

  “I will not tell you what I went through in that interval. But even     in its utmost agony—even in those terrible throes that love must     suffer before it can be disembodied of selfish desire—my love for     you sufficed to withhold me from suicide, without the aid of any     other motive. In the midst of my egoism, I yet could not bear to     come like a death-shadow across the feast of your joy. I could not     bear to forsake the world in which you still lived and might need     me; it was part of the faith I had vowed to you,—to wait and     endure. Maggie, that is a proof of what I write now to assure you     of,—that no anguish I have had to bear on your account has been too     heavy a price to pay for the new life into which I have entered in     loving you. I want you to put aside all grief because of the grief     you have caused me. I was nurtured in the sense of privation; I     never expected happiness; and in knowing you, in loving you, I have     had, and still have, what reconciles me to life. You have been to     my affections what light, what colour is to my eyes, what music is     to the inward ear, you have raised a dim unrest into a vivid     consciousness. The new life I have found in caring for your joy and     sorrow more than for what is directly my own, has transformed the     spirit of rebellious murmuring into that willing endurance which is     the birth of strong sympathy. I think nothing but such complete and     intense love could have initiated me into that enlarged life which     grows and grows by appropriating the life of others; for before, I     was always dragged back from it by ever-present painful     self-consciousness. I even think sometimes that this gift of     transferred life which has come to me in loving you, may be a new     power to me. 

  “Then, dear one, in spite of all, you have been the blessing of my     life. Let no self-reproach weigh on you because of me. It is I who     should rather reproach myself for having urged my feelings upon     you, and hurried you into words that you have felt as fetters. You     meant to be true to those words; you _have_ been true. I can     measure your sacrifice by what I have known in only one half-hour     of your presence with me, when I dreamed that you might love me     best. But, Maggie, I have no just claim on you for more than     affectionate remembrance. 

  “For some time I have shrunk from writing to you, because I have     shrunk even from the appearance of wishing to thrust myself before     you, and so repeating my original error. But you will not     misconstrue me. I know that we must keep apart for a long while;     cruel tongues would force us apart, if nothing else did. But I     shall not go away. The place where you are is the one where my mind     must live, wherever I might travel. And remember that I am     unchangeably yours,—yours not with selfish wishes, but with a     devotion that excludes such wishes. 

  “God comfort you, my loving, large-souled Maggie. If every one else     has misconceived you, remember that you have never been doubted by     him whose heart recognised you ten years ago. 

  “Do not believe any one who says I am ill, because I am not seen     out of doors. I have only had nervous headaches,—no worse than I     have sometimes had them before. But the overpowering heat inclines     me to be perfectly quiescent in the daytime. I am strong enough to     obey any word which shall tell me that I can serve you by word or     deed. 

“Yours to the last,

“Philip Wakem.”

As Maggie knelt by the bed sobbing, with that letter pressed under her, her feelings again and again gathered themselves in a whispered cry, always in the same words,—

“O God, is there any happiness in love that could make me forget their pain?”